That the works of God may be displayed in him
What if I had seen the signs sooner? What if we had chosen different treatments? What if I had driven the extra miles to reach the high-risk hospital? As I clung to my newborn son, studying his face through hot tears as his weary body came to rest and his soul drifted into heaven, these questions flew at me like fiery arrows. Perhaps you’ve been assaulted by similar questions and have felt burdened over all of the ways your choices could have influenced the outcome.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
But what if I had more faith? Like me, perhaps you were told that God would part the proverbial Red Sea of a devastating diagnosis if you simply had enough faith. Like me, perhaps you wrestled with feelings of betrayal and even guilt when you truly believed that God could heal, yet watched at He chose not to heal in the ways you had hoped for.
This isn’t your fault.
I want you to let that sink in for a moment, as you give yourself the freedom to step out from under the guilt you were never meant to carry.
In John 9, as Jesus heals a man who had been born blind. Jesus’ disciples ask him, “Who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” Jesus tells them, “Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.” Just like the blind man and just like his parents, you are free from guilt. While Jesus weeps with us in our sorrow and stands as the ultimate enemy of death, He is bigger than our decisions, bigger than our mistakes, and even bigger than our faith in Him. The loss of your child is no fault of your own and you are invited to step out into freedom, laying all guilt at the foot of the cross. ✨